Outwardly the course of my life is set, but inwardly I am profoundly restless and I feel far from You. There’s no risk left, and I’m scared of settling for this. Trouble is, everything’s going great, it’d be easy to miss my life a day at a time. It’s all become too easy, too predictable, too safe, too sensible I feel like I’m just dying spiritually… So I’ve got nowhere left to go, but to get down on my knees and wait for You to speak. The one thing I do know is that if I don’t learn to truly hear Your voice for myself, and follow it diligently – regardless of what others say – I could feel like a fraud for the rest of my life.